TAKE CARE OF BABY

It's quite tired taking care of baby, it's been 3 years I don't take care of a baby. Now taking care of my second baby I felt a little depress since when she want to get sleep usually she must cry first sometimes I feel want to be angry but she just a baby how can I be angry. Now I realise that how noble a mother is, they take care of their children without any complain. I hope that I can handle this soon. At night I can't sleep well because need to get up feed my baby and make her sleep. Today is the 21st day since my baby born, a few days more I can take a bath, my hair is already very sticky and smelly, last night there's a fly follow me, I think it like my smell coz very smelly. But I can't wash my hair first only can take bath, to wash hair must wait until the 40th day. Pls let the day pass quickly. The most unbearable thing is my right hand fingers still don't have any feel since my pregnant period, the doctor said will recover the feel maybe in 3 months, oh my god, the feel is not good when you can't feel anything.